So, here we are again. Money Monday. However, until I get through the beginning of this book, these first few posts will be more about changing your way of thinking about lack and choosing better feeling thoughts.
Let's discuss emotional discomfort.
Pags 6, 7: Your emotional discomfort is a powerful indicator that something is very wrong...What is wrong is that you are out of harmony with your own [Inner] Being, with who-you-really-are...What is wrong is not something that is outside of you over which you have no control. What is wrong is within you - and you do have control.
Now, I don't know about you, but when I am feeling icky on the inside, I can feel hopeless, overwhelmed and out of control. Or depressed. Your Inner Being, or God, or Source, or whatever you choose to call it, only focuses on your value, your success, your health, your expansion, love. Therefore, when you feel bad, you are out of alignment with this powerful Being. I love knowing that if I change my way of thinking, I can turn that ickiness into something much better and become closer to who I am really supposed to be. And there is one point to remember:
Every subject is really two subjects.
Pages 14, 15: Abundance/Absence of Abundance (Poverty) I want more money/I don't have enough money I want to buy that/I can't afford that I want a new car/My car is old
Therefore, since every subject is really two subjects, then we can consciously decide to "pivot" our viewpoint to the positive side of the subject. This is called the (page 17) Process of Pivoting: When life seems to have you negatively oriented toward the lack of something you want, and when you make the statement, "I know what I do not want; what is it that I do want?" the answer to that question is summoned from within you, and in that very moment the beginning of a vibrational shift occurs. Pivoting is a powerful tool that will instantly improve your life.
I can vouch for this. Since I began reading this book a week or two ago, I have been practicing this statement. Whenever I think, "I hate my bathrooms but we can't afford it", I turn it around to "I want new, pretty, remodeled bathrooms", and then I concentrate on what it would be like to have those new bathrooms. And I instantly feel better. Or if I think, "We can't afford to get a new roof", I instead think, "I want a new roof for our house!" and then concentrate on how beautiful my house would look with a new roof. And I feel better.
The other day, I was devastated with some financial news. I cried for two days. Now, when I think about it, instead of feeling hopeless and overwhelmed, I block the negative worry and think, "I want more money" or "I want financial freedom" and I think about how that would feel amazing...and then I smile. I have found this tool to be extremely helpful in keeping my hopes up and keeping worry at bay.
Last night, I had incredible anxiety while lying in bed and I couldn't figure out why. So, I thought about it and came to the conclusion that on that particular day, I was feeling the exhaustion of all work and no play, no adult time and too much time spent day in and day out with a toddler, not enough time with my husband because of multiple jobs. I felt restless and unhappy when I went to bed. So, I thought, "I know what I don't want. Now, what do I want?" And instantly, my thoughts started rolling: "I want my husband to quit his second job. I want to have more fun. I want to laugh more. I want to spend more time together as a family. I want to spend more time with friends as a family." I began to think about how wonderful it will be the day we can do all of these things. The anxiety was soothed and I fell asleep.
The title of my blog was inspired by the Elizabeth Bishop poem, The Moose. "One stop at Bass River. / Then the Economies- / Lower, Middle, Upper; / Five Islands, Five Houses, / where a woman shakes her tablecloth / out after supper."
My dad nicknamed me "Moose" shortly after I was born. Not really related to the poem, just an embarrassing name to follow me throughout my formative teenage years.
the ballerina thing didn't work out...neither did gymnastics (that one REALLY didn't work out), softball, baseball, soccer (the worst!), basketball...nor did my hopes of being an astronomer, a special education teacher, a fashion icon, a piano prodigy, marrying Jon Bon Jovi, or being stinkin' rich. But I'll tell ya what did work out. I am a 36-yr old wife and mom who is learning as I go. I have 2 blonde-haired sons, a dog who pees in the hallway and prefers the toilet to his water dish, and a husband who looks like Russell Crowe (yay! although he says he looks like the man who ATE Russell Crowe). Aaaahhh, my Cinderella Man.