Tuesday, June 8, 2010

The Big Bucks, or just some bucks would do

So, after some rather disheartening financial news this weekend where I spent two days crying and having anxiety attacks, I decided it is time to start my Money Monday series. I need to change my attitude about money and I hope this is the book to help me do it: Money and the Law of Attraction: Learning to Attract Wealth, Health and Happiness.

I will write about what I learn every Monday (as long as I can remember where I left my book) and hopefully this will help me put into practice the book's principles (as long as my son doesn't find my book first and use it as a bath toy).

Money has never been very important to me. My grandmother always told me to marry a man who was going to make money, but that just wasn't me. I knew I would marry for love whether he was a street sweeper or a millionaire.

Growing up, my family was middle-class. I grew up not wealthy, but not lacking anything either. When I became an independent adult, I had a job as a manager of a clothing store and I made enough money for me to pay my bills and have a little left over. When I got married, my husband and I also made just enough money to pay our bills and have a little left over. But, after we had our son, we decided that I should stay at home with him while my husband worked, which left us just being able to pay our bills.

Then, last year, my husband lost his job. Ever since then, we have been on a financial roller coaster that has cost us both many sleepless nights. For the first time in my life, I care about money.

Why? Because it isn't just me anymore.

I have a son. And another son on the way. And I never want my kids to be without. And I don't want to have to worry anymore about how we will provide the basics for them or how we will afford birthday presents and Christmas presents - the worry takes physical and emotional power away from me, which makes it impossible for me to give my children all of the attention they deserve. The worry distracts me, and frankly, it is pissing me off.

I want to be able to give my children all of me.

So, thus begins my new series, Money Mondays, and hopefully, a new attitude about the green, the moolah, the Benjamins, the dough, the bread, the bucks, the Gs, the dead presidents, the pesos, the change, the whatever you like to call it. I just want to call it "MINE!"

8 comments:

  1. I know this is going to sound really stupid, but this financial downturn is happening when your son is at a good age. His needs are relatively simple, he's not in school yet, so he's not made to feel different than his friends who have more material possessions.

    And now, while he is little, you have a great opportunity to teach him as you learn how to put money in its proper perspective in your lives.

    Before you think I'm totally crazy, my husband and I are both unemployed. My son is starting high school in the Fall - it's a lot harder when he wants the stylish jeans, a cell phone, and all the other "stuff" the cool kids have.

    How I wish he was still satisfied with 50 cents for the gumball machine at the grocery store.

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  2. I'm right there with you and I can so feel your pain! I also stay home w/ my youngest son but I didn't always. It's very very hard. I'm learning to adapt though. I'm also running a new series on Fridays that may help you. It's true money doesn't matter until you don't have any. I'll be saying a prayer for you!

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  3. I will happily learn anything you can teach me!

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  4. Hugs and I am so sorry you guys are going through this. This Economy just bites. I'm glad your moving forward for your sanity and your husbands. :)

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  5. It's hard to let the worry go...praying for you :)

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  6. I'm so sorry you guys have gotten more bad news. I'm praying that you will get a break soon. I love ya and will help any way I can when I come visit.

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  7. I think I need that book too.

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