Friday, December 4, 2009

Why am I still up?

So, it is so late. 10:20 pm. This is late for me. My eyes are stinging with sleepiness. I'm fighting it. I don't like going to bed after 10 pm. If I don't get enough sleep, then I'm a baaaaaad mommy. My tolerance for the incessant whining is waaaaaaay low.

So, this is why yesterday, I was a freaking mess.

I didn't get enough sleep the night before, so that was my first problem.

My second problem was that I got a good dose of what it will be like when we have another kid because I watched my 3-yr old nephew, along with my one-yr old son, two days in a row for eight hours each time. I had to balance their naptimes, feed them at relatively the same time, find games to entertain them both, and control the fighting and whining and fake crying, oh the fake crying, which happened quite frequently.

The house was in complete shambles because who has time to clean when you have two kids needing ALL of your attention at ALL times of the day? Seriously. I'm asking who?

I thought I could atleast pick up the toys during their naps, but my son woke up crying both days and I had to rock him back to sleep. The crying woke up my nephew both days as well, so there I was with no TV break. I mean, cleaning break.

To make matters worse, my son hit me in the face with a board book (he got a little too excited about "jamma jamma jamma jamma PJ!"), so then I had, and still have, a sore nose bridge and two bloody scratches. My husband said it looks like he beats me and I'm totally going to use that to my advantage.

Anyhoo, when my husband got home from work he said it looked like a bomb exploded in our house, so I sat down at the dining room table and cried. He was all, "What's wrong?"

So I said, in between heaves, "The house looks like crap (sniff) and a toy bomb went off in the den (deep breath) and the dishes are out of control and my nose hurts (sniff) and I can't get it all done (heave) and I didn't make anything for dinner and Meeko (our dog) is like having a third kid in the house and he put four scratches in the office door and I can't take it and I will threaten your life if you say anything about the mess on the kitchen counter! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!"

Then, I had a mimosa and a chocolate milkshake and I felt allllll better.

I should really go to bed.


  1. Why, that's exactly how I feel every day of my life. :) I'm a raving lunatic. It's a good thing I don't work outside of the home. People would be scared. My house always looks like that...I hate it, but I just can't seem to keep up. I have one room that I keep clean all the time and it's my sanctuary. I can go in there and pretend that I'm ok, that everything is in control and that I'm a good mommy/wife/domestic person. Sometimes it even works.

    I remember when Nick was little (er) he threw a dinosaur at me and it hit me in the nose. He was just playing, but MAN!, that kid has an arm. I was bleeding and trying not to cry. I think the more kids you have, the faster your reflexes become. That's my theory, anyway.

    And it's 11:23pm and I should be going to bed.

  2. Hang in DOES get easier! Couple tablespoons of humor, cuz one day..everything WILL be funny.

  3. I'm also with ya on this as well, I could have written this post!! (except for the husband part, and extra kidlet) LOL

    Ever since I got sick a couple of months ago my life has been in a COMPLETE shambles. I have no idea how to even begin tackling it. Most days, I just sit and cry. And then some days, (like today) I sit and make play-doh animals with Trinity and tell myself "I'll worry about it tomorrow".

    Trinity tripped down the stairs the other day, and in an attempt to catch her, I fell as well. She was fine, but I hit the side of my face on the handrail and am now sporting a bruise under my left eye!! (so sexy) LOL

    I hope you have a much better day tomorrow!!

  4. I am terrified of having another child. (We are going to "try" in spring) I don't know how to do it with two either. I'm already consumed with my little guy. It's all I can do to do dishes, laundry, maybe sweep the floors. But really, I never look up. I'm pretty sure we have cobwebs the size of Texas hanging from our ceilings.
    Kudos to you for drowning yourself in milkshakes! Well done!

  5. I am with ya. My ONE child is like a hurricane, he likes to grab various items, brushes, chords are a favorite, play with them for a minute and scatter them to other areas of the house. if you don;t constantly pick up, it can be the shambles. And really, who has the energy to constantly clean up??? Glad the mimosa and choclate helped!! xo

  6. Yah for food to make us feel better during stressful times;) Hope you have a great weekend.

  7. HAHAHAHAHA!! Hey--when did you sneak into my house and rip the pages from my journal? THIS is SO my life! I have four kids and well--I am just surprised I'm not bald yet. Seriously. You with this that having two kids would have been enough birth control, but I must have gotten drugged in all that time because now I have 4 under the age of 9.

    I wrote a blog about a panic room back in march. That is my story anyway...

    Glad you survived!!

  8. After two kids you learn to live with the mess, and believe me, everyone understands. All you do is say, "Sorry about the mess, but the kids..." and there's no need for more. Older mothers remember, and younger mothers know! This is how I get when I want all parts of my life to be perfect, and I do work full time, but I finally ralize that my husband is my partner and even though I wish I didn't have to ask, he has no problem when I do.

  9. Oh my! Sounds like you've had the hardest 2 days of YOUR LIFE! But a mimosa and a chocolate milkshake can make any day a little better!

  10. Here's a little reassurance: once the second one comes along, you will magically find that things start to fall into place all on their own, even if the house is still a disaster-zone at the end of the day. See, being put in a situation where you have to care for two children suddenly can be very overwhelming - but when you have another child of your own, you're not really inserting them into your daily routine; they BECOME a part of "life as usual".

    Before you even realize what's happening, you'll find that your family has fallen into some kind of routine (whether or not anyone understands it really isn't important since they're not the ones juggling two or more children, LOL!). It gets progressively easier, then harder as your younger child faces the trials of growing up (teething, separation anxiety, etc.), then easier again, and then... well, I guess it's a never-ending cycle, but you learn to become more accepting of the chaos over time.

    So enjoy however much chocolate you need to start feeling like your old self again, and try not to worry about the future - take it from someone whose kids are less than 2 years apart, it all works itself out at some point. :)

  11. Ahh but when that second one is yours..those naps eventually coincide, you bribe your three year old to clean up with you (or errr for you) and tell Hubby he is in charge of dinner unless you say otherwise!

    I do like the mimosa and chocolate shake idea though! Keep that too:)

  12. When the second kid is yours, you have all the time when they're a baby and not mobile to adjust and flex your supermommy muscles, it doesn't just spring on you the same way.

    Which basically means everything will still be chaos and your house will still be a mess, but you won't be as surprised. ;)


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